Not really sure what im doing

I have decided to write about my experience of coming off antidepressants cause you never know i might help someone or there could be someone out there that will help me as i go through this.  So lets give a brief description as to why im on antidepressants.  Basically got postnatal depression.  It was so wonderful giving birth to my daughter and hating every moment of her life for the first year and by the way im being sarcastic.  I feel robbed to be honest.  Especially as i had had two kids before her and knew what i should have been feeling having a new baby.  But hey.... so i had gotten to the point where i was suicidal well actually i was suicidal from the very beginning i just hid it well and thought that this would go away.  Well it didnt and eventually my husband dragged me to the doctors and so began my antidepressant treatment.  I also went to a therapist, which was amazing and i found out i had alot of things to heal from my past.  So im now two years taking antidepressants and i feel fantastic better than i ever did.  So i have made the brave decision to wean myself off.  So i have gone from 20mg to 10mg and have been this way for the past month.  Boy is my libido coming back its fantastic.  I do find myself analyzing every emotion and feeling i have. Wondering am i getting depressed again.  But so far today i feel okay!! The only side-effects im getting is constipation for a week then ill poop like crazing for a few days and then ill be constiapated again and leg cramps that actually wake me up at night.  So begins my new journey. Anyone out there want to take it with me??